I’m not good enough.
I’m not enough.
As I was pondering this over a random lunch of sprouts and scrambled eggs, I realized that these in themselves are not the lies.
I am unworthy.
I am unlovable.
I am inadequate.
I am not good enough.
I am invisible.
I am not enough.
The lie that the devil would have me believe is that in those things, God doesn’t love me.
But that’s untrue.
Christ arrives right on time to make this happen. He didn’t, and doesn’t, wait for us to get ready. He presented himself for this sacrificial death when we were far too weak and rebellious to do anything to get ourselves ready. And even if we hadn’t been so weak, we wouldn’t have known what to do anyway. We can understand someone dying for a person worth dying for, and we can understand how someone good and noble could inspire us to selfless sacrifice. But God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while we were of no use whatever to him.
In Romans 5:10 the NIV translates our position to God as enemies.
My friend, you and I were enemies of God. We were more than worthless to Him. And yet, “while we were God’s enemies we were reconciled to him through the death of His Son.”
A few years ago I was at a prayer retreat at a convent and was spending some time worshipping God on my own. I was seated in an old cushy chair in the middle of a small storage room. I began to sing that old(ish) tune, “This is the air I breathe”. When I got to the chorus and began to sing “I’m desperate for you”, a man’s voice joined in. No one else was visibly in the room, but to my surprise, Jesus was singing audibly. With me. HE was singing to me “I’m desperate for you”.
I was broken.
I am the one that is supposed to long after God, but the truth is, He longed after me before I was even born. He is desperate for me. For you. So desperate for a relationship with you and I that he chose to sacrifice himself rather than live without us.
Like the shepherd looking for his sheep, like the merchant who sells it all for the pearl of great price, like the widow who turns her house upside down to find a single coin, like the father who humiliates himself to rush into the arms of his forsaking son, he loves me with wild abandon.
The lie is that God doesn’t love me BECAUSE I am unworthy, unlovable, inadequate, invisible.
The truth is that BECAUSE God loves me I am worthy, lovable, adequate, and visible.
In Him, I am enough.
It’s all because He loves me.
May the lies you have believed be banished by the overwhelming flood of his love.
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